LIKE A STAR (Corinne Bailey Rae)

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金曜日, 4月 21, 2006

Shouts into the void

If one were to talk in public without anyone listening, one might think he was talking on a hands-free set rather than think of him as a crazy man. Of course, if he had chlothes from the gutter and chewing something remotely food-like. well, either way, I'll keep my distance thanks.

Self-expression is a necessity of the human condition. regardless to whom might be listening out there. there. there. (fades)

I've placed myself in many situations that necessitated me voicing my opinions, feelings into a deeper, more sophisticated level. And you know what, my head hurts.

I wish it was as simple as blabbering hours on ends. Not only must I say what I mean. I must make sure that others take from it the meaning I meant to say. if it were so simple.

Languages are inept to do this. It is in it's nature to be ambiguous, flexible. Like the brain. The brain is imperfect as I'm sure all of you have come across its imperfections. But future is not founded on perfection but on survival.

There are very slight tremors in our movements. For our body to repeat precise movements with exact precision can be very daunting, not depending on the number of repetition. But without such inherent noise in our system, we'll be here today?

Why seek perfection and not celebrate imperfection? A straight vertical line can be deceptively beautiful. Is it because it is a fortuitous for us to do so?

I feel the throbbing in my head fading. I have broken new grounds with my mom. It has been electric shock therapy for both of us. I do believe we have both achieved a new chapter in our lives.

I'm going to SIngapore tmr with Andy. What has changed? what hasn't? I can't wait to find out.

I am at London biggest radio station heart fm. no not like anything like the heart 91.3 that singapore house/d plays.

Surprisingly, radio, though ubiquitous, is at its heart (pun pun!) very empty. thank god for music. It's ability to fill the void. To reach places unreachable. It permeats the darkness like that time when the boy in The Never Ending Story who wished his last wish that the evil dark queen to have a heart. Radio might not save lives, but it airbrushes society, giving it that softer touch, so lacking today.

I remember a superhero cartoon episode I watched where superheroes of all kinds were trapped in a dense neurton/positron/electron (one or the other) field, unbreakable by any of the powers of these superheroes. Until this superhero, quiet, unimposing, opens his mouth and unleashed a sonic scream so powerful, it broke all barriers. What is its significance? Why do I still remember that scene s0 vividly? Must be the attraction to power. huh.

Nothing can bottle sound. It is in its nature to expand and reverberate anything that comes in its way.

Am I resonating yet? Maybe another bottle of beer might help. hehe.

金曜日, 3月 03, 2006

Come and watch me act!!

Want to know more?

Go to Asian Boys

日曜日, 2月 19, 2006

Obsessions with perceptions

I am no exception.

Fidel's Johari

Dates to pencil into your diaries!!!!!

Andy and I will be in Singapore from the 23rd of April till 1st of May.

Need to meet up with people, show Andy around. The works. yup.

Keep it real.

木曜日, 2月 09, 2006

I so wanted to be Robin. Sighz

Your results:
You are Catwoman
Catwoman

75%
Superman

65%
The Flash

65%
Spider-Man

60%
Hulk

60%
Iron Man

60%
Robin

55%
Green Lantern

55%
Supergirl

45%
Wonder Woman

45%
Batman

25%
You have had a tough childhood,
you know how to be a thief and exploit others
but you stand up for society's cast-offs.

木曜日, 1月 26, 2006

I don't know why?

Yeah, don't know, but just don't seem to feel like blogging for a while.

I'm in a good place now.

I'll tell my mom i'm gay on the 4th feb 2006. so stick around to find out how that goes down.

then it'll be telling her abt Andy.

1st day of rehearsals went well, i'm bit rusty but it's great to escape. motivated to memorise my lines.

i've started swimming, though the pool tastes of sweat, and u have to dodge pesky children, some of whom are like icebergs - small heads above water, obese bodies under, which i have to manouver round. very distracting. maybe cos it's swimming lessons. but very refreshing. gets my oxygen supply to study for GRE.

my rough guide: mon - fri : work at GSK, mon, tue night = rehearse my scripts, wed night = rehearsals + Andy + desperate housewives, thurs- sun : study for GRE + Andy, tue & thurs night = swim night. Not too complicated or hectic.

well that's my life in a nutshell. sorted i hope till April. I've got a 5000 word report due in in March as well as a big presentation as well as Goldman Sachs GLP alumni. so bits and pieces thrown in to add variety. I'm flexible.

note to self: go and get ur blood test tmr.

月曜日, 1月 23, 2006

I miss Michelle Tan Wanling (is that ur full name?) can't remember

FIFIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!How are you?? Its been so long.. TOO long! I miss you Where are you?! Why havent you met me up.. since forever?!

Oh and btw happy CNY in advance! *hugs* I was just looking thru my stuff and I came across the pressie you gave me back in JC yr 1. The cute Jap SUShi erasers!! I still can't bear to use them up.. They so cute! (But I keep them out of sight when I'm hungry though) When are you coming back? We should catch up! Tell me abt the girls in UK~! THE hostel food! school, schopping life everything!

i mis those random days in NJC wher'we'd bump into one another and just do silly little things..NUS 's been good. although sometimes it actualyl dulls in comparison to NJC. cos the pple just aren't as crazy/wacky/zany/noisy/*shameless* haha..take care!! and i really hope to hear from you soons

EARGHHHHHHHHHHHhhh*jealousy and little bits of electricty sparks flying out of my head! How'd you get to work at GSK must find me a lobang cann can can can??!!

[: your blog is so cute and alive and happening with the MTV!! mine is like this dead beat: when does misch ever update website.. but you can try and locate it anyway and see if i ever write something new and update about my life in spore.
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anyways ill let you in on my secret special blog of this girl whom i completely idolise and wish i could meet and all.. *shhhhhh* this is CLASSIFED stuff but her webbie is so cool! With great BITS of music and WACKY pictures! Very inspiring

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Pharmacy is good! but having fun is better! I just went to Misintry of sound in spore! Its cool! they have a funky room with the disco floor you know the one with the colourful squares ( so SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER) when you come bak we must go dancing!!

no more hunky canoeist frm NJC. This time.. the lucky boy is a HWA chong Canoeist.. ( I swear I dont go just for muscles.. but.. His name is Sam (kuh on friendster)

*squeeze* are you still playing squash and are you shoulders still fun and slopey as ever?! And do you remember bumping into my best friend at orchard??? *hahahaha* come back soon! and yes if i ever go europe to visit my cousins in london ill see you too!!wish our time zones were closer!

misch

Keeping it gangster

that and the inter-web. which does sound better than inter-net.

weekend was great. fri nite was cheer up Ashton nite with gin n tonic at the colcherne? i can't spell. it's a gay pub along old brompton rd i think. v interesting crowd and layout. pool table at one end, music on the other end, a mini stage, sleezy upstairs, and v strange lighting all round.

couldn't imagine anyone having to go through wat ashton did. don't think it's nice to say. can't remember wat we did for dinner. was it macdonalds? did we watch rein of fire and ransom that night? shrug.

anyways, sat was a lovely day, filled with blue sky and sunshine. english breakfast at the blue cafe? before getting some nuts to feed the squirrels. did manage to find some squirrels through the cemetry in Old brompton. they were shy though. Andy was hurt cos they didn't seem to respond to him. He luvs squirrels but it just wasn't meant to be a squirrely day.

We went on a slight detour through Imperial College, which blew him away. really. well, the graduating in Royal Albert Hall and my batch being the 100th yr to graduate were just bragging. weird to think that Ashton did biochem at Imperial and was Andy's ex. (I've met 2 out 4 now)

We walked through hyde park, no squirrels. Had a warm drink, holding hands and a kiss before continuing all the way to Selfridges.

Went to use Andy's bday voucher for Jean Paul Gaultier fragrance. then walked down carnaby street to see if the boy in london store was still there. ( i have a pair of jeans from there. turns out to be a gay label but i've nvr realised it. can't remember where i bought it. don't think it's real) nope, wasn't there.

trudged along through a route i've nvr been before. saw japanese shops etc gordon ramsay restaurant etc. ended up in SOHO to check out Herm's jeans and also penis pasta that grow in size. good stuff.

if u can imagine how much we've walked by now, then we really did a break. so we had lunch in Chinatown. i had congee and he had steak fillet. cheap and cheerful.

on the walk back, went through piccadilly, poped into the market for a bit. then through hyde park, laughing at roller bladers showing off, and watever thing u call them? roller skiing? smiled at the dogs. yes. we are dog lovers. v. cute.
at high st. ken, tried for the last time at an Energie shop for herms but still couldn't find them. we did try our best.

After our feet aching, calf tensing, back stinging, we finally did manage to get home. took a nap obviously. waking only cos we needed to eat and needed to go and get groceries. I cooked spaghetti with chicken and broccoli. we has smarties to start with and chocolate wafers to end. 2 chocoholics can't be gd.

slept like a baby.

Sunday was bit more nippy than sat. we went to spitafield market. had fake indonesian lunch. visited the chocolate shop after buying a belgian chocolate cake. tsk tsk. brought andy to look for something i didn't know where and wat it was called. brave andy. didn't find it obviously.

we took the tube while still recovering from the bi-pedal nightmare, to covent garden. had to show him coffee, cake and kink. Edwina, and dennis would luv it. 2 cups of strong sumatran coffee, browsing through some SM pics and books and talking abt kinky stuff. lol.

my mom called me while we were walking through covent garden. and so we talked and talked and talked. hope andy didn't mind. mothers. couldn't get to earl's court from covent garden so had to get the tube from embankment. and since we passed kudos (gay bar that apparently attracts asian and oriental gay pple in search of white meat ie SPG Sarong Party Gays.) Had a pint. Did our official bf chat and off we went.

showed off my new bf to Charlotte and gang, and Charlotte being charlotte, made ondeh ondeh, and fed us amongst other things. wasn' t too akward, i hope. i went to collect my books was the lame excuse, but true and overdue. ended up leaving it at Andy's place.

Another pint at the pub before heading back. food on a sunday evening? macdonald voucher. i got a happy meal with sonic the hedgehog toy. yeay!

used the interweb for a bit, before lying in bed watching bourne identity.

i'm starting to enjoy waking up at 6.45 -7 am. well, as long as there's someone to wake up to and walk to the tube station with.

peace out!

日曜日, 1月 22, 2006

It's official!

I luv Andy!

He luvs me!

We are boyfriends!

What more do you need to know?