Shouts into the void
Self-expression is a necessity of the human condition. regardless to whom might be listening out there. there. there. (fades)
I've placed myself in many situations that necessitated me voicing my opinions, feelings into a deeper, more sophisticated level. And you know what, my head hurts.
I wish it was as simple as blabbering hours on ends. Not only must I say what I mean. I must make sure that others take from it the meaning I meant to say. if it were so simple.
Languages are inept to do this. It is in it's nature to be ambiguous, flexible. Like the brain. The brain is imperfect as I'm sure all of you have come across its imperfections. But future is not founded on perfection but on survival.
There are very slight tremors in our movements. For our body to repeat precise movements with exact precision can be very daunting, not depending on the number of repetition. But without such inherent noise in our system, we'll be here today?
Why seek perfection and not celebrate imperfection? A straight vertical line can be deceptively beautiful. Is it because it is a fortuitous for us to do so?
I feel the throbbing in my head fading. I have broken new grounds with my mom. It has been electric shock therapy for both of us. I do believe we have both achieved a new chapter in our lives.
I'm going to SIngapore tmr with Andy. What has changed? what hasn't? I can't wait to find out.
I am at London biggest radio station heart fm. no not like anything like the heart 91.3 that singapore house/d plays.
Surprisingly, radio, though ubiquitous, is at its heart (pun pun!) very empty. thank god for music. It's ability to fill the void. To reach places unreachable. It permeats the darkness like that time when the boy in The Never Ending Story who wished his last wish that the evil dark queen to have a heart. Radio might not save lives, but it airbrushes society, giving it that softer touch, so lacking today.
I remember a superhero cartoon episode I watched where superheroes of all kinds were trapped in a dense neurton/positron/electron (one or the other) field, unbreakable by any of the powers of these superheroes. Until this superhero, quiet, unimposing, opens his mouth and unleashed a sonic scream so powerful, it broke all barriers. What is its significance? Why do I still remember that scene s0 vividly? Must be the attraction to power. huh.
Nothing can bottle sound. It is in its nature to expand and reverberate anything that comes in its way.
Am I resonating yet? Maybe another bottle of beer might help. hehe.