Family Feud

I just recieved an e-mail from my mom.

She apparently had a big fight with one of her sis, one out of the 9 sis.
Her mom's staying with my mom
and now both seem to have severed ties with 2 other of her sis.

It's nothing new or shocking. It's part and parcel of my extended family.
now I'm not to talk with any of her side of the family.

There are fires within fires and wheels within wheels - The Crucible

My only concern is for my mom and grandma's health and happiness.

Maybe I should stop airing dirty laundry......but no one bothers to clean it and the pile is growing. I don't understand how avoiding the problem will solve anything, maybe because if whoever deals with the problem head on, someone's gonna get hurt in all sense of the word.

There seems to be similairties btw this indonesian family and the italian mafia.

A peak into my thoughts

I'm feeling v. bloggy today, and feeling much better.

Btw, I didn't want to be seen writing 2 blogs in a day, so I might change the dates now and then to make things look presentable. well, it's part of who I am.

Lionel's gonna help me buy an external hard drive from Amazon....200GB...for £100....I'm getting tingly all over just thinking of that much space. That's partly why I have to write and tell everyone.

I realised I can be quite direct and blunt, and probably step on quite a few toes, like a bull in a china shop. I guess I don't expect people to take me seriously or maybe I mean personally. What I say in that point in time stays in that point in time. I don't know how long the after shocks will last or how long it will resonante. I think it'll kill me (figuratively) to think into too much before I do anything. I like to think of myself like a kuih lapis....you decide which coloured layer you want to start off first.

No link? I'm just writing. The mind doesn't work in what one might define as logical but I believe every action, word, thought and dream the mind comes up with has a link, be it conscious or unconscious. It depends on how hard you search for that link.

I don't like to be stereotyped, it destroys individuality. I don't like to be labelled, it's condescending. why? it's as though I'm some lab rat in a set-up experiment and what I do will equate to a certain label. Don't simplify the complexity of individuals. That's condescending. A does not always equal to B wrt to time or space. it destroys what makes us human and what makes us the top of the food chain - that is the ability to change, improve and adapt and learn

So then?

Are we more similar than we are different? Or is the converse true?

Does each similarity or differences carry the same weightage? What is the significance of each of us having a nose as compared to our differences in ampathy?

Would we like to think of ourselves as more similar or more different?

What keeps the human race together and the individuals apart?

I'm trying to zoom in and out of THIS microscope but I can't seem to focus.
It's not the answers that count, it's asking the right questions and not being afraid to face them.

Keeping my head in the sky but feet on the ground

I have a slight tingling sensation down the back of my throat.
I feel warmer than usual.
The phlegm is viscous and small, slowly building up.
My eyes are watery and I'm hungry.

I have been reminded of the people I love and hold dear to my heart, reminded of the reasons why I'm here and they're there with 7000km and 8 hrs between us.

Haku, はく, once said do you have anything you hold dear to your heart? True strength comes from protecting the person you love.

Neji ねじ and Chouji 弔辞　said that friends believe in them and their capabilities and they couldn't let their friends oｒ their village down.

My opponent lies before me, I've sworn on the pain in my left hand not to turn back - なるとnaruto

What do you do when the mind is strong but the body is weak?
'I'm moving out of my own will and not my body' kamimaro　紙麻呂

I have to prove my worth and protect those around me. I can't go back on my word, that's my way of a ninja - naruto　なると

*music scratches*

time to go for managerial economics. 行って来ます。じゃね。

Keeping things short and simple

I got past the faculty round for the GLobal Leader, I'm 1 of the 14 from Imperial but Imperial will send only 10. I'm guessing this 10 will then compete with 10 each from Cambridge/Oxford/LSE. we'll see how far this goes.

Currently listening to Capital 95.8....Destiny's Child....

I found the lecture topic interesting....chemotaxis.....but the lecture was boring.

My new phone is Motorola E1000, 3G, Camera, bluetooth blah blah....it's o.k i guess, not terribly excited.

It's australia day today....yipee...the british generally thhink australia's like their long lost family..

Just ate a tuna sandwich from The Sandwich Shop + apple

Gonna watch Kung FU Hustler

Melancholia: technical, a feeling of great sadness and lack of energy, often caused by mental illness, depression.

I'm the tyre that's stuck in a puddle of mud, spinning so fast, not getting out.

'That was just a dream......that was just me in the corner...... losing my religion.....I haven't said enough...I thought I saw you smile.........'

"No matter how he normally behaves, a man does what he needs to do" GTO

Kiss 100FM, Beyonce...baby boy.........

Mind over body

I've been a bad boy. Although I'm back on my revision schedule, I've been spending too much time watching GTO. I watched 8 episodes on Sun and 5 episodes on Mon. I can't keep this going with me exams round the corner.

I signed up for this volunteering conference in Blackpool, all expenses paid weekend retreat.
I'm more looking forward to the trip to Brussels than the exam, but I want to study hard so that I don't feel guilty on the trip. It's only 2 days anyways.

I have to stay focussed, and determined. did i tell you i've got a new phone. Haven't seen it though. I know i'm bad with technology and phone models and technical Lingos.....so not much help huh.

My room mate said I was sleep talking, quite loudly. He didn't understand what I was saying and he said I was studying too hard. Hmmm....I think i was trying to sing the new GTO 2nd ending:　しずく　Miwako OkudA

すべての人を愛せるわけじゃないなら せめて愛する人を
裏切らずに疑わずに 責めたり憎んだりしないで

無邪気でいることが 人を傷つけてしまうの?
静かな情熱が瞳の奥で騒ぎだす...あなたに巡り合えて

こぼれそうな泪のつぶ 流さず胸にためて
一瞬を強く生きよ 一途なしずくになって

純粋な愛情が いつだって誰かを惑わしてる
あきらめないで祈りましょう 世界がたとえ暗闇でも

自分に誇れる たったひとつを見つけだそう
コトバに出来ない夢が両手にあふれても 誰にも染まらないよ

果てしない時代 (とき) の中で 自分に何が出来る
今はまだ小さくても 輝き消せやしないよ

水道のカルキがシンクの淵にたまって そのまま溶けそうにない
化学環境もちろん愛情も ぜんぶ同じ次元で考える
何かひとつ自分にしかできないコト 見つけだせたら
他にはなにもいらないでしょ それが最近わかってきたでしょ
大きな岩のような都会の隅っこで 何かを少しずつ X 3 変えていきたい
誰かを本気で浸食してたい

今朝のテレビは遠い何処かの 憎みあう誰かを映してた

果てしない時代 (とき) の中で 自分に何が出来る
今はまだ小さくても 輝き消せやしないよ

こぼれそうな泪のつぶ 流さず胸にためて
一瞬を強く生きよ 一途なしずくになって

Translate:
If you can't love everyone, at least do not
Betray, suspect, accuse, or hate the ones you love

Does being innocent mean that I will hurt people?
A quiet passion begins to stir within my eyes... after meeting you

Teardrops are about to fall; I don't let them, holding them within my heart
Live each moment to the fullest; become a focused drop

Pure love is always leading someone astray
Let's pray without giving up, even if the world has turned dark

Let's find the one thing that I can be proud to myself about
Even if dreams that I cannot put into words fill both of my hands, I won't let myself be affected by anyone

What can I do in these neverending times?
Even though the spark is faint right now, you can't put it out

The tapwater's chlorine deposits have accumulated on the sink's edge and doesn't seem like it'll ever dissolve
I think of even the scientific environment and love at the same level
If you find the one thing that only you can do,
You need nothing else, right? You've come to realize that lately, right?
From a corner in the city that's like a huge boulder, I want to change something, little by little by little
I want to infiltrate someone for real

This morning, the TV was showing people somewhere far away who hated each other

What can I do in these neverending times?
Even though the spark is faint right now, you can't put it out

Teardrops are about to fall; I don't let them, holding them within my heart
Live each moment to the fullest; become a focused drop

Quirky's prayer

Dear God,

Thank you for today and the week that has past.
Lord, I pray for my mom. Please take care of her health and happiness.
Lord, I also pray for my grandma for her speedy recovery.
Lord, I pray for my friends. Thank you for bringing them into my life.
Lord, I pray that you watch over them and may they realise and fulfill their dreams.
Lord, thank you for every stranger or passer-by whom you've brought into my life and made me smile and lent a helping hand.
Lord, please help me to realise the talents within me and develop them according to your will.
I ask this prayer through your son, Jesus Christ, who lives and reigns with you and the holy spirit. Amen.

Our father.....

Hail Mary.....

Glory be......

What? did you think God doesn't spend his Sundays reading blogs? I wondered if God left a message on my tag-board. hmmm??? Basically this is the basic skeleton of what i pray during mass with some changes here and there, now and then. haha.